lying hurts

I hate subterfuge and lying.I hate it most when its practiced by people you expect to be open with.The constant being on edge bugs me no end.Relationships last because there is openness they crumble and die when there is deceit.I have always prided myself for my honesty and integrity i wish i could say the same for others who i have the misfortune to be in touch with.I expected change in such people but I guess I was kidding myself.

to scream or not to....

i always thought that it would be easy to put together an event with the help of students.i've since realised the naivete behind it all.if there are forty students there are that many dissenting opinions as well.sometimes i reach the nadir trying to convince a bunch of mulish students to give up being stubborn.i fail miserably.the national seminar looms in the not so distant future.i require devine intervention.so help me god.ciao

two little kitties

nearly twelve years ago my beloved pet dog steggy died leaving me completely shattered .i swore at that point never to care for another animal and leave myself open to pain again.but god willed otherwise.a week ago two scrawny kittens landed at our garden.my daughter and husband have taken to them easily ,she has named one lathy and the other pathy.i have opened up to them reluctantly.i protest but heartily give away the extra milk to the two poor mites.i am rewarded with grateful purrs and kitty rubs.i love it all.yet there is that latent fear of what ifs.of the two lathy is the healthy one ,a surviver.pathy is tired and seems to be giving up the fight she has given up food and the overwhelming heat of bangalore is too much for her.i have hinted to my daughter to be prepared for any eventuality.she cried her heart out just imagining such a possibility.i pray to god to take care of the kitties .give me and my family the strength to face what HE has in mind.dear kitties you are loved.

exam blues

i have always hated exams.i hate them all the more now because my daughter is over burdened by a slew of them through out the year and she is in grade five ! i cant imagine whats it going to be like for her and other kids like her in the coming years.as a teacher i lament the fact that we hardly test the intelligence of the students through these exams .its just a stream of facts learnt without much enthusiasm or love , a chore that has got to be completed well for most kids.i hate to see my daughter go through the tension and anxiety of the whole process.when i was a school girl(eons ago) i always felt that things would change in the future but it did not.my daughter sometimes wonders will it be different for kids twenty years down the line? i hate to disappoint her-little one dont have hopes on that quarter.i hope for the future generation we find a better method of evaluation.ciao.

welcomes and farewells.

its that time of year again -term end.another semester almost coming to a close.i love it and i hate it as well.love it because it promises new beginnings hate it because familiar faces are fast fading into a region of the future .a future that does not involve me teaching them familiar topics.well i guess every teacher experiences these disconsolate feelings.i am glad students today are cool about endings and farewells.no embarrassing bouts of gushy 'miss yous' with the present generation.they are able to handle' end of college' moments with equanimity and strength.bravo girls -you have indeed come a long way!bye girls,a hearty welcome to  the new kids on the block!

movie masti with khan

its that time of year again-diwali!to me and to scores of shah rukh khan fans it means only one thing--badshah's latest release.i am waiting with all the eagerness of a teen his new movie--om shanti om.every time i see the promos of the film i get charged.i have high expectations from both king khan as well as the director,farah khan.she did a terrific job with main hoon na.i am sure she'll come a cropper this time round too.what with khan sharing screen space with so many stars [past and present-in fact the whos who of the hindi film industry]its no wonder then that the film is generating so much heat.bit i hope he keeps the ham box home and belts out a swadesh like performance.heres to great movies.ciao.

melting moments

the year,the academic year is nearly coming to a close.so many thoughts come to mind .not easy to capture every moment and store for later.it was eventful.new students jostled with the old for space--emotional and physical.every year it gets that much tougher for students to establish this sense of self.i wonder why?i remember my college days-we girls were pleasantly complacent in our individual grooves.hardly any rivalry or competition.infact naively satisfied with our lot.were we innocent or merely living in a fools paradise?thats a question i'am going to need some serious thinking to be done.later much later.thinking of the present generation brings to my mind my daughter.she is only ten.so much awaits her out there.i hope she is able to enjoy all of the excitement and fun thats part of being young.little one,savour and cherish this time,dont be in a hurry.