a little more maturity.

many issues were ironed out.i realise that its difficult to handle the collective egos of many students.one has to very carefull. but it was done with care and diplomacy.my advice to all young lady students do not give too much importance to rumours and comments of others.try to move on despite and inspite of others trying to put you down.life teaches us all lessons.bye for now gals out there.

heart strings

heard the songs of the film 'veer-zaara'.there was video accompaniment too.the screen seemed to sizzle with the chemistry between the principal characters.i dont mean to gush(i know i am doing exactly that,sorry).very few screen pairs have that-electricity,that binds them intrincically.makes many a member of the audience sigh with longing or envy.to have that something special with someone.well some are lucky (the fortunate few) and some are not.the search is perrenial.i shall stop now .more later.

pretty woman n 'm-e-n'!

liked the movie 'pyar ke side effects'.watched it yesterday.there was nothing new in the movie in terms of story or theme.yet there was somthing i found endearing.mallika surprised me.i know it sounds patronising but i don't mean to be.like so many millions of viewers i too judged a female actor wrongly without even seeing a single film of hers.is it too impossible for an actress to be sexy as well as convincing in her role.why can't she have both?another point i noticed in the film was the perrenial complaint of men against the institution of marriage?if any body has the right i guess its the women.we have to put up with them don't we.hey girls let not any body convince you of it otherwise-we bear the cross of it -literally!

after effects

the event is over at last.i am happy my students did creditably.they stand a good chance of entering into the final round.so many dreams, so many aspirations.i felt happy for those who came that much closer to realising theirs.but saw pain of rejection as well.to all those who tried and lost ,i understand.i wish it could have been otherwise. well thats life--you lose some,you win some.while on our way to work my husband and i saw a dog and watched with fascination how it observed the people cross the busy intersection.it faithfully followed them and successfully crossed over to the other side.am interrupted here.will log on later.

0f life and nonsense

we woman are stange creatures.we think too much ,we feel too much.another weakness is we expect too much out of life and people.i as a teacher expect too much out of some of my students .why are we this way.more to the point why am i made this way?i guess i have a lot of unlearning to do.i also bring down every thing into an emotional quotient.i have no idea why i do it.i would like nothing better than to be like the scores of young women i see-detatched and professional.i am perpetually on an emotional high--both my daughter and husband can vouch for that.i have had an eventful day today.totally bushed.catch up with myself later.

of love n romance

i can never be like that.succint and oh so pragmatic about every thing.i have to have an element of romance and excitement in my life -be it work or personal life.more in my personal life of course but thats not hapenning on an everyday basis.the daily routine somhow impedes this process of l n r.he says we are getting enough of l n r and i disagree with him.is there any thing called enough where love or loving is concerned.wake up n.its a call to you.start by posting a gooey reply to this.bye

family ties

bemused and totally confused not knowing what to do.i am so helpless.i guess i am very sensitive.i have to learn to be more thick skinned.people let us down.the ones we consider our own are the ones who hurt us the most.but for her sake i shall face the situation.my daughter thou art the love of my life.little one your mother is made of sterner stuff.my home and hearth is very precious to me.on to more optimistic things.she is growing up to be a pretty young thing.i can't wait for her to turn eighteen.i shall have a true friend in her.i cant wait for that to happen.i would to go to the movies with her a past time i once enjoyed so much with my husband.he doesnt enjoy movies anymore.considers them juvenile.or does he consider me juvenile?thats a poser i am interested in getting an answer to.families are strange things.they can make or break you.i wonder what will happen to me?

of faith and trust

i feel a strange sensation in my tummy.i know for a fact that it is tension.i know the reason too.but who do i tell it to .it is too sensitive an issue.i have spoken about it to my--.i try to rationalise that such things dont happen to people like me.i dont even want to think about this .i just want it to go away.its not good for me to worry.but try as i might nothing seems to work.how do i ignore this.its an act that i shall never forgive.i hate deciet.my daughter,the love and light of my life help me survive this and many more transgressions of people.i feel very defeated right now.will come back later.

bored to death.

hi to whoever out there.there can't be many since i am yet to recieve a comment on my previous posts.i sleepwalked through the entire day.an achievement indeed for usually i am charged with manic energy.i guess its the lack of excitement.what am i looking for?attention and loads of it mind you.but i dont see that happenning.poor me.i wish i could streatch the speacial moments of life for ever.if wishes were horses i would have been the proud owner of a pair of fine stallions.sometimes ,simple pleasures become near impossible.i need constant assurance.i dont see that happenning either.well,to love and all that.bye.